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| | ive got some loose ends that need tying up i have some pieces of the puzzle that have fallen out of place i got a shoebox full of memories i keep beside my bed so when i wake up from my nightmares i can see your face you're hundreds of miles away right now but your voice still sounds like home and when i get a longing to be near you i just pick up the phone the word love is just a label for how i feel about you this is a simple elementry explanation that i choose because when it becomes complicated its you that i could lose and i'd never ever risk your not coming through when we are together i don't know what it's like to be apart and when you're far away i know you have my heart just please return eventually, you'll always have the key when the world is locked away, you will have no barriers to me as the dawn is gray and rosy and i kneel next to my bed i cannot stop the sleep that gnaws inside my head i pray that god is listening and i pray for you instead... because i know no matter where, i'll follow where you've fled so please don't stop needing me, wherever you choose to go i'll follow close behind you or you can leave me here at home Penelope never lost her faith and in her I see myself i will give my heart and give my soul so you know how i felt. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| It is not the past few days that have made me feel this way
And it is not the tiny marks of doubt that cover everything I see
It is just the way she looks at me with a love so complete
That I have never seen
And from this grows a strong, undying guilt
The feeling of regret for things I never felt
But oh, I wanted to change and become what she needs
I know what she needs, what I can never be | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to people you like. You can't use the band I used. Do not repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "My Life According to (BAND NAME)"
MY LIFE ACCORDING TO BRIGHT EYES
Are you a male or female?
"When The Curious Girl Realizes She Is Under Glass"
Describe yourself:
"Drunk Kid Catholic"
How do you feel:
"A Poetic Retelling Of An Unfortunate Seduction"
Describe where you currently live:
"Devil Town"
If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
"June On The West Coast"
Your favorite form of transportation:
"Road to Joy"
Your best friend is:
"Easy/Lucky/Free"
Your favorite color is:
"True Blue"
What's the weather like:
"Spent on Rainy Days"
Favorite time of day:
"Driving Fast Through a Big City at Night"
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
"Smoke Without Fire"
Your relationships:
"It's Cool, We Can Still Be Friends"
Your fear:
"All Of the Truth"
What is the best advice you have to give:
"Take It Easy (Love Nothing)"
If you could change your name, you would change it to:
"Lila"
Thought for the Day:
"Saturday as Usual"
How I would like to die:
"No One Would Riot For Less"
My soul's present condition:
"No Lies, Just Love"
My motto:
"The Feel Good Revolution"
What is life to you:
"A Perfect Sonnett" | | comments: Leave a comment |
| April 4
I'm writing to you more, for fate or accident, which I thought was always on my side, didn't let me see you, although I was at your place yesterday, on Saturday, for today is Sunday and today I was also at your place.
But first yesterday. I was at your place at seven in the evening. I struggled so much with myself: to go, not to go - and I don't know what won: the good or the bad, although the fight was decided, for I went to your place. I climbed up the stairs and paused by the door. For a moment I thought about what I should say when you show in the door, but I couldn't do anything anymore. And I knocked on the door, trusting timidly that you will see everything in my eyes. In the same way, I think, I would throw myself into water, trusting that it will read everything and it won't let me fight for my life, which I don't want, and then it won't let me wash off on the shore, an easy pray. Instead, that it keep me in itself.
And so I put my trust in you, that you will read everything in my eyes, as if I put my trust in the water, throwing myself into it. That's how I threw myself into you, not knowing what I would say when you show in the door. But you didn't show. I climbed back down and nothing touched me. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i will watch you play
i come here every night
it’s just me the bartender the waitress and the lights
shining on you not getting it right
we clap not for you but for your kind
you should back out now
not a night too soon
i’ll still be here when the last poor soul has left the room
standing round just like a good friend should
smiling as if your songs were good
and i sat there for hours
waiting on the curb
thinking you might like a flower from a pretty girl | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | 30h!3 | | Time: | 07:23 pm |
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| I think I should know how to make love to something innocent without leaving my fingerprints
Out,
Now,
L-o-v-e's just another word I never learned to pronounce | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I AM REBELLING AGAINST EXAMS!!! BY WATCHING GOSSIP GIRL ON MY LAPTOP AND DESIGNING OUTFITS! TAKE THAT, -8 DEGREE WEATHER. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| its actually past four am, but..
i cant sleep, i cant focus, i have so much work *stress stress stress*
my heart isn't in it though when i still have a week off.
tomorrow is quay's get together.. i am a little excited to see certain someones.
whenever i try to sleep i get this weird adrenline rush, like my body is trying to stop it from happening, and let me tell you, it makes falling asleep not pleasant! sometimes i take tylenol PM but that doesnt help. i get to thinking late at questions big questions, like who i am. i think its so fascinating how certain words and traits are atattched to people and why, when everyones kinda sorta similar. i dont know. tonight i sat in a coffee shop at 1 in the morning, drinking chai, checking out the hot coffee serving guy, and watching a bunch of weirdos sort of orbit around all of eachother. there were some kids playing cards and others playing video games and one man with hair down to his waist and black eyeliner, and there i am with my friend putting a johnny cash song on the juke box for a dollar. cocaine blues. i never got to hear it play though, which is a pity. i liked watching the smoke drift all around me and listening to people's weird conversations. i think i would love to work the 3 am to 7 am shift, to see what interactions happen when the late night people meet the early morning people in a sort of twilight. there was an old lady there tonight, with a lined face and greying hair, in a belly shirt with hair that was falsely dyed platnium blonde, flirting with a much younger man as a cig dangled from her wizened fingers. it was kind of fascinating to watch in a train wreck sort of way. she bought a muffin in a burst of girlish spontenuity, and the younger man jokingly tried to coerce her into giving him some, and the whole time i was just appreciating that, if not her, at least i was youthful and vital and absorbing all of this for the first time. i am seventeen and feel like taking on the world. i am on the cusp of two worlds. i hope that maybe fifteen minutes after i left, my johnny cash song came on and hipsters rioted against the bluegrassy guitars. more likely only a few people noticed, as it played into the background as white noise for their conversations. but i can hope, right
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| So this is my last day of being sixteen...
I still feel very young even though I guess I'm not anymore. I hope I've learned something... hope I've changed for the better... and lastly hope seventeen will be a big change. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| That Ohio was once the very ZENITH of culture, sophistication, and technological advancement in North America?
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During the time of the Hopewell Indians?
Haha, Ohio. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I decided...
Thanksgiving is when we are allowed to eat too much
Christmas is when we are allowed to buy too much
& New Years we are allowed to drink too much
but really, who can blame us? it's all this crappy snow. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Today is a historic day.
I'm in awe of this country - I interned for his campaign for 2 and then some months and did not think he would actually do it. Did I think he deserved to? Of course - no questions. But did I believe America could overcome their bigotry and embrace a liberal biracial man whose idea of change was not always treated with comfort? No, I didn't. And how could I, with the people I encountered canvassing and in Lake Ridge's hallways? These were people who I got along with every day, neighbors, rational people, who turned into people I did not recognize when confronted with the prospect of a biracial President. I had never felt so downcast about the state of the world after canvassing or making phone calls. "I'd never vote for that n*****!" "He's a socialist!" "He's a muslim!" "You aren't a true American for supporting him" "I'd rather see him shining my shoes."
All of those things were comments I heard while campaigning.
Imagine my surprise when Election Night '08 Barack Obama became our President-Elect. I had never felt prouder in my country then when I realized the majority of us had united behind this man - a symbol of hope for millions of Americans struggling to make ends meet - and forget our predjudices. I often said over the last few months that this election should not be about RACE and I still hold with those opinions - Senator Obama is simply the better candidate. But was it an election that was heavily entwined with the politics of race? Yes, because while America is learning to deal with racial predjudices, we have still not yet learned to look past race as an issue at all. At that point we will become a much more unified nation. I look forward to the day when Barack Obama is not known simply as the first black president, but to the day when he is regarded as -just- one of the best presidents to happen to America, and not because of the color of his skin. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| culteral references much??
anyhow - krislov wanted me to update this so I will.
all i do is go to rehearsal, intern, and read my euro textbook. sometimes i write reflections. so there really isnt all that much to update.
someone should probably get me a social life.
kbyeeeee | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i am for real
homecoming is tomorrow :)
ap european history is the most rewarding and frustrating class i've ever taken. ap english is kinda how i expected it, and discrete, yearbook, choir and acting are fun and easy. its a good year. good friends.
tomorrow is also my first show with mocha. whatever you do, dont say 'Break a leg!' hahahaha | | comments: Leave a comment |
| 1) Beginning jumping again, arena and woods. Train Mocha or buy a horse who can!
-Mocha did end up going over some small jumps in the arena. He has a lot of heart but no form..little baby! Anyhow, I'll be able to jump with more well trained horses come this year when I start taking lessons again.
2) Be able to bait and cast and do fishing-y things all by myself.
-Hahahaa yeah no. I tried once. But the worms! I just can't handle it. So no, guess not.
3) Even without needing to (no writing down pages when you are in AP english!) read and reread classic novels.
-Pshaw yesss.
4) Go to a hookah bar.
-I am sixteen. Guess the answer.
5) Go swimming in the creek behind the barn.
-Well, this totally would have happened, had someone not moved in.
6) Tannnnn :)
-I'm definitely better then I was before! At least I don't look sick.
7) Visit the Komorny's, keep in touch with them.
-Yes I did, and I spent a week with them, and it was excellent. They might come visit me come winter break.
8) Get in shape! Jogging, probably.
-Again, not so much.
9) Start writing letters to people.
-I did write some letters! And it was really fun, just like I remembered. I'm totally going to try and keep it up during the school year. It's fufilling.
10) Finally.. *&*^%$^&*() (AKA I know what my last resolution is but I'm not saying it on a public blog, but I'll remember when I look at this come junior year.)
-Yes. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| old ship give me your hands.
i'm the cape that came to crush and snag you on my sands.
below the ocean and from my point of view,
you were always drinking and drunk well before noon,
and dreaming on my pillow of high tide.
but i'd allow you. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| SUMMMERR
1) Sunshine
2) Friends
3) Love
4) Self-improvement
5) Beauty
And thats why I love it and am moving to Texas
summer year round | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I need to get off my lazy butt, soo..
1) Beginning jumping again, arena and woods. Train Mocha or buy a horse who can!
2) Be able to bait and cast and do fishing-y things all by myself.
3) Even without needing to (no writing down pages when you are in AP english!) read and reread classic novels.
4) Go to a hookah bar.
5) Go swimming in the creek behind the barn.
6) Tannnnn :)
7) Visit the Komorny's, keep in touch with them.
8) Get in shape! Jogging, probably.
9) Start writing letters to people.
10) Finally.. *&*^%$^&*() (AKA I know what my last resolution is but I'm not saying it on a public blog, but I'll remember when I look at this come junior year.) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | the knot in my stomach that forms from a year of school at Lake Ridge is beginning to unwind, leaving me vulnerable to the stress of next year. i suppose it has to come undone at some point, or else i'd go through summer like i go through the school year - anxious, praying for the next day to come. some sane people may ask "why do you go through it then?" and i know deep down its because i really do love the school, the people, and i am pretty sure i am learning a lot. that doesnt mean though that the stress of it gets me, and will probably just get worse as an upperclassmen. (APs!) maybe it was a blessing in disguise that i lost the locke house election. anyhow, what i need to relearn is how to appreciate the quieter things around me. i need to take happiness in each day, not looking to the next day like i do with school. i need to be happy to walk around the garden, not feel guilt that my time could be used better like i do with school. i need to treat people kindly and honestly, not with a fake smile so i dont cause any problems like i do with school. these are my summer resolutions. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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